Sounds like bad karma.
Oh and hey man, checked out your reel - you seriously have a killer eye - I mean it. So yeah just keep shooting, and be an absolute joy to work with and you will do fine. Having great work is good - but honestly, people hire you and producers trust you because your a nice guy and they want to have you on set.(I have seen so many people with 20+ experience get passed over for jobs by guys with less than 5 just because the dude was great to work with.) So as long as someone doesnt completely suck - if they are nice to be around, they have a pretty good shot at getting hired.
Your work is for sure good enough for professional commercial work and/or features for sure- If I was DPing something Id hire you as an operator! and anything you dont know technically, a great 1st AC, Gaffer and Key Grip will help you out with. So just be a pleasure to have on set, focus on telling stories visually and the art form of cinematography and I bet you in a year your life will look completely different than it does now.
I feel you Andrew - In my experience - very rarely does "legitimate work" come through those job posting sites. Most work comes from referrals. The good jobs - the jobs you actually want to shoot are gonna be pretty much referral only. Its all about who knows you - not actually who you know (because you can "know" alot of people, but if no one knows your name, you aint getting jack swat in terms of jobs)
I feel that comes from time. Its an endurance race - the longer you last, the more people you get to know, and the more likely one of them will like you enough to throw good paid work your way. So just keep shooting, put your ALL into every project , dont be lazy on projects you feel are not important - treat each one with the same care, excitement and work ethic as you would on your first 1 million dollar feature, and you will do fine.
Also - knowing good producers is key. Yes knowing good directors is also good, but a producer who trusts you will hire you. The producer will hire the director, and if the director doesn't have a "go to dp" which alot of them dont, especially first time directors - the producer will hire you to shoot for him. And producers also typically have more projects going on than a director.
lastly, have integrity - if there is a project or a story that you dont want to tell or be apart of, or goes against your core values and beliefs, say no - even if it is good pay. People will respect you, and ultimately your body of work will consist of stellar film after stellar film - instead of terribly made films with gross scripts. And the good producers with good films will hire you over the guy who only has terrible films on his resume. A job isn't worth selling out your integrity.
Blessing man, hope it helps - keep going and your lucky to be in NYC, its alot harder to find "legitimate work" outside of places like LA(where I am based) NYC,Austin,Chicago or Atlanta. Keep going. Fight the good fight. Finish the race and don't give up hope! :)
Yeah, I agree with the above comments - if you get a Red Scarlet - for 10K, you would only be able to afford a body with SSD side mount and a lens mount - you would need atleast 14K to have a functional camera.(assuming your buying new, you could get better deals in the used market)
TBH you may not even need a camera - I feel having a camera seems good starting out(and is almost a requirement with mandy gigs and super low budget features), but when you get more gigs and form relationships with producers and directors and the budgets increase, they will hire you because of your talent, and can afford to rent a camera - and likely one better than any you could likely afford now.
I would look into the Cion camera or a black magic - so you atleast have something if you feel you need a camera- because you would need atleast 25-40K to get a halfway decent scarlet package.
The Cion seems super solid, and could do Doc's as well as shorts and commercials and has a lovely image.
and what do you expect to get lens wise - or would you rent? because those would run atleast 10K minimum for PL glass.