What is the perfect movie that s the same it has to touch you i think.

None of the two are but they are free some features missing but both you can already do alot with it.

Right on

The Book Of Bunny Suicides and bojack horseman are also funny suicide stories.

1 advise only to use cross dissolve if you really need it for a well chosen effect. There is nothing more ugly than using across dissolves on everything without thinking it true or to mask bad cuts. Most of the times you can use jump cuts or other smart choices instead of using a disolve.

If it is not for critical colour grading I want sunlight, it is a place where you have to spend much of your time and sunlight keeps your biological clock ticking and keeps you happy :). Try to avoid direct sunlight at your screen. For coulour grading you then can close te blinds.